Did you tell me I
would be broken
when you made me
special
Did you call me
hopeless
when I begged forgiveness
Because now I am
crawling
waiting for tomorrow
With a today so very
desperate
that yesterday is
hiding
There is no more point
here
I shout into the echo
But I can feel nothing
other than this burden
Special for your
weakness
Special for my
survival
Special is what kills
me
I cannot defy it
But I am sane and you are not
and here we are and there I was
when I cannot breathe out loud
lest you hear me moving
Far out of your orbit
spinning in slow
motion
Trying to shout louder
than a kitten’s
mewling
Will the planets find
me
all my silent crying
Now I can feel nothing
only my plates
shifting
Into old arrangements
nothing ever changes
If you could have loved
me
let me be ordinary
The world would have
opened
the stars would have
held me
But now I am so special
the goddess of your
nothing
What you poured inside
me
it was not for growing
It was all for killing
what was only dying
to be loved at all...
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