Wednesday, 19 August 2015

The missing fifth


There once was a girl.  The saddest girl in the world, because she kept believing.  She thought she was so clever and strong.  She thought she was different.  She thought all of the red lines would lead to one circle that would form a barrier around her forever.  But the red lines didn't.  They just lead to more red lines.  She can no longer remember the red line she started from.  When she tries to walk backwards nothing looks familiar—all she can see is what is in front of her.  The boy laying down the red straws does not help her.  He pays no attention to anything other than the red straws, and to placing them on the large, white sheet spread across the middle of the open market.  No one cares about him being there and he doesn't care about them.  He does not see the girl standing in the middle of all of the red straws, trying to remember where she came from.  Soon there are so many straws leading in so many different directions that she loses hope.  She does not understand the pattern.  Only the boy does.  He is the one who keeps us all wandering down different lines, so that we never meet.  We must never meet.  We must never speak to each other.  The boy’s job is to keep us all walking, but never at the same place together.   We must always remain lost and alone.  

There is a solution but the boy genius will never open his mouth.  He talks with the red straws.  They tell his story for him.  And it is a beautiful story, in its own way.  A beautiful story of loneliness and loss and of being lost until all wandering ends.

Tuesday, 18 August 2015

Diary entry, January 1, 1983

Dear Diary,

Yesterday my mom went to the hospital for 2 weeks.  My dad came to stay with us.  He’s a little too organized and clean.  I love him a lot though.  I miss Mom already.  Today me, Steve, and Dad went to get Dad’s stuff.  Grandpa was a little grouchy.  I haven’t seen Joan since last night.  She’s always with Brian.  I like Brian, though.  I called Mom today.  She made 2 friends and is doing better.

Monday, 17 August 2015

The prison within

Whisper it to me while no one is listening
tell me I am a fool
tell me I am not
tell me something that makes sense
and then prove it


Sunday, 16 August 2015

Saturday Night, 1970s

He wakes her up in the middle of the night.  It is late, and she is tired.  When she asks him where they are going he shushes her.  Her sisters pretend to be sleeping but she knows they aren't.  They are all awake.

Saturday, 15 August 2015

The witch, redux



“She will watch you and report whatever you say or do,” the witch warned me.  “She never sleeps, and she never blinks.  You might think you’ve fooled her, but you won’t have.  She exists for only one purpose.   You cannot kill her.  You cannot win.”

Friday, 14 August 2015


Ode to the fallen goddess, 1993

I've been thinking about you today - 
I've been wondering about you today.
You were like a sewing needle in the jugular
but I missed you today.

Could I be seeing you in what I was 
Death is to see you in what I
become.

Even though I loved you more than snow 
on my birthdays in
December.