Saturday, 5 November 2016

Bonfires


Stretch me across your rack, my love
turn tight the wheels
I will not cry
I will not cry since I have
been dry for too long
I should have known
I should have known that
the moment I found the heart to 
bring you here
I would be so much more alone.

Friday, 4 November 2016

Escape


Tell the little girl the devil is pounding
on the gates,
salivating,
waiting.
God reserves a special place for you
it is where the clouds burst and bang
the loudest.
It is his business to forgive,
not mine.
His.

Frozen

Ursula sent Andy a long email, in which she denounced him as an emotional cripple.  She also compared him to her father, who had never loved anything but the family dog, and said neither one of them (Andy and her father, not the dog) had no idea what emotional intimacy was.   I’m sure you’ve already stopped reading by now, she sniffed at the end, but she was wrong.  Andy read the whole thing.   He even showed it to Jake, who had a good chuckle over it.  “Women,” Jake laughed.  “Always so damn superior.  Talk about needing a psychiatrist, huh?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, whadya want with a chick named Ursula?  I’m telling you—stick to the women with normal names.  The ones who sound like they should be in a Bond movie are always psychopaths.” 

“I’ll keep that in mind,” Andy answered.  But he wasn’t smiling.


Thursday, 3 November 2016

Let go


The defense has become the obstacle
I cannot give it up
it is giving me up
it is waving goodbye
it has become boring
please please please
I look out of the bus window and I see
houses and a golf course
not ready
it keeps rattling at the gate
let me kiss you goodbye

just wait
just wait
just not ready yet

The defense has become the obstacle
there is no turning back.

Delusions of Grandeur

“She thinks she’s so special,” Scott scoffed.  “Well,” Dirk answered, in drowsy voice, “she does have an engineering degree from MIT.”

“Dime a dozen,” Scott returned.  “Actually,” Dirk began, only for Scott to noisily push his chair back so that it drowned out the rest of Dirk’s comment.  “I’m getting a soda,” he announced.  “Who’s coming with me?”  Joel and Jenson leapt to their feet and followed a few paces behind Scott.  “They better have Pepsi,” Matt heard Scott say, “or there will be hell to pay.”

“He’s a very angry man,” Dirk remarked to Matt.  He then closed his eyes and went back to sleep.


Wednesday, 2 November 2016

November 1991

I see a man
at the top of a hill underneath a tree
I turn to face him
we stand there for a while
the grass is green from the rain
he does not know my name
I turn to him
I open my mouth and nothing gags
he listens
I turn to run I run run run
down the hill my arms stretched wide
I dive between the tall grass
the grass is tall from the rain
he calls for the daydreamer but I am gone
I am back laying in my bed
hating myself for the telling
it is too late
he does not know my name but he knows
there is no turning back


Tuesday, 1 November 2016

Fare thee well



Where are you tonight?
I see you sitting on the low-backed blue sofa
only a cat could love
complaining about me and 
discussing Jung and astrology in 
the same breath.
I see you you are so unknowable
I hate one person more and that is
myself.