Sunday, 2 April 2017

Cold

“I suppose someone has to get these things,” his mother told him.  “Statistically speaking, I mean.  My turn just came up.”

Unsure of whether or not she meant this as a joke, Jonah answered, “I guess.”

“So the way I see it, I’ve spared someone else the trouble.  And that’s a very nice thing of me to do.  Don’t you think?”

Jonah just stood there, helpless.

“But you know, you shouldn’t be sad,” she went on, now flipping through the coupon section.  “Because someday this will all just be a memory.  And how you remember it will last much longer than what happened.  So remember it in the way that will make you happiest.”

“Okay,” Jonah answered.  “I’m going to go make a cup of coffee.”

“You do that, dear.  Don’t let your father near the coffeemaker—it blows up every time he touches it.”  His mother picked up a pair of scissors and cut out a coupon for laundry detergent.  “Now that’s a good price,” he heard her murmuring to herself.  In the kitchen he was staring at the jar of coffee when his father came in.  “What’s going on?” he asked Jonah,  “Want some coffee?  I’ll make it.”

“That’s all right,” Jonah said, and unscrewed the lid.


Saturday, 1 April 2017

The Enemy Within


silence 
a mocking foe
shrouded    in hope
I was waiting where did you go        
you cannot say and I     I just do not know
from way over there
you do not echo anywhere
I am so
lost
the deadliest place is no place new at all


Friday, 31 March 2017

Magic's End

A couple of hours later Jack stomped into Jonah’s living room.  “It’s amazing we were born with any brains in our head, considering the morons who conceived us,” Jack said bitterly.  “No chemo, no radiation, no nothing.  She’s just giving up.”

“According to Dad, the doctors said it was hopeless.”

“And since when do doctors know what the hell they’re talking about?  They were using leeches like fifty years ago!”

“I don’t know about that.”

“My point is, even if it’s a remote chance that treatment would work, isn’t a remote chance better than no chance?” Jack snapped.  He dropped onto the couch.  “I just can’t believe this.  I had no idea.”

“She has been acting weird lately, I guess," Jonah said, but Jack was quick to retort, “Who can tell?  She’s always acting weird.  How was I supposed to know that this week it meant she had a fatal illness?”


Thursday, 30 March 2017

Midnight



“It’s about Mom.”

Still watching the monitor, Jack said, “What about her?  Did she burn another pot roast on Sunday?”

“Yeah.  And she’s got a brain tumor.”

Jack whipped his head toward Jonah.  “A what?”

“A brain tumor.  They can’t operate on it.  Dad says she’s got a few months.”

“To live?”

“Yeah.”

Jack sat back in the booth; he looked as if someone had just hit him in the stomach with an empty beer pitcher.  “Holy shit!  How long have you known?”

“Since Sunday.”

“Why didn’t anyone tell me?”

“You know how they are.”

Jack snorted, before his face fell again.  “But only a few months…really?”

Jonah nodded.

“She still has all of her hair, though!”

“They’re not going to do chemo.  It won’t help, so Mom doesn’t want it.”

“What about Dad?”

“He said it’s up to her.”

“Oh, great.  He’s leaving critical life-or-death decisions to the biggest ditz on the planet,” Jack said, and grabbed his coat.  “I’m going over there.  Someone has to talk some sense into her, and it seems like I’m the only one in this family willing to do it.  I’ll see you later.”

Wednesday, 29 March 2017

One


I have heard you
echo in the distance
I have heard you
whimper through the radio
It is my fault
I brought you here
We were so very much alone

Tuesday, 28 March 2017

Hiding in Plain Sight


“I just talked to Mom,” Jonah said.

His father looked away.

Neither of them spoke for a while.  Eventually Jonah asked him, “How long?”

“Three or four months.  They’re not sure.  Never are.”

“And there’s no treatment?”

“No.”

“You checked?”

“Yes.”

“Does Jack know?”

“Not yet.”  His father paused.  “Maybe you could tell him." 

Jonah did not particularly want to.  But something about hearing his mother sing “You Sexy Thing” in the other room prompted him to answer, “Okay.  I’ll tell him on Tuesday.”


Monday, 27 March 2017

Release


Tell her the devil is pounding
on the gates
salivating
waiting
God reserves a special place for you
It is where the clouds burst and bang
the loudest
It is His business to forgive
not mine.