No road led to anywhere safe. I could never again be either my mother’s
punching bag or Christine’s project, to compensate for all of the failure in
their own lives. Nor could I divorce
Rick. Whatever or whoever he was, my
soul—my entire being—had merged with his.
It was ludicrous to think I could leave him now. To leave Rick would require me to kill the
last part of me that still clung to life.
And yet neither could I just carry on. Each choice I made, each breath I took, led
to disaster. I no longer believed in the
future. I wasn’t even sure I believed in
love anymore—at least, not the redemptive kind.
All I did know was that I felt like a shattered piece of china glued
back together one too many times. I had
no idea who or what to trust, who to blame, or who to forgive. But the terrified child inside of me refused
to be silenced. She would not leave me
be.
The truth could no longer be avoided. I was damaged beyond repair. This time there would be no gluing me back
together again.
*From my novel The Dragon in the Elevator, revised and soon to be re-published.
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