Cathy sent me a one line email. It read, Michael’s
drinking again.
I laid my
head down on my arms and started to cry such violent, bone-shattering sobs,
that Louise ran into the room. “What’s
wrong?” she asked me. My head still
down, I jabbed at my screen. After a
moment I heard her say, “Shit.”
“This is my
fault...”
“Of course
it’s not your fault. He’s an
alcoholic—that’s what alcoholics do.
They drink.”
“He’d been sober
for 14 years!”
“Well, you
didn’t buy him the booze, did you? He
could have gone to an AA meeting if he was that desperate,” Louise
returned. “It sucks, and I really like
him and wish him well, but he’s being a moron.
I mean, it’s not like this will get you back, or change what’s
happened.”
“What he’s
been through would be too much for almost anyone,” I protested. “He felt so guilty about all of it.”
“Then he
needs to find himself a good therapist and snap out of it. Mom always let Dad get away with his
drinking, blaming it on one thing or another, and look what happened. He never had to change because no one ever
held him accountable.”
When I just
shook my head, Louise’s expression softened.
“He’s a smart guy,” she told me.
“He’ll figure it out. I don’t
believe for a minute he’ll still be drinking by this time next year, so stop
worrying, okay? This isn’t your fight
anymore.”
When he dropped me I fell
and it was close, the ground so close that I could smell the
grass as his fingers loosed
their hold
somehow I forgot to wave goodbye
forgot that without him
I could not fly
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