Was feeling strong
last night, like I would be okay—wanted to remember.
Had a dream that I
was with two people (can’t remember who)—went to Grandma’s house, although it
looked like a hybrid of her house and my childhood house. The house was empty, we were just checking up on
it. Everyone who had lived there had
disappeared, except for Grandpa, who we knew had died. The door to the living room was closed--we’d
closed it for some reason having to do with heating or whatever--but it must
have opened a crack because a little dog belonging to my companion ran into the
room & down to the basement. We
opened the door to that room and called for the dog—we saw him come up from the
basement. But he didn't come up alone. A girl/young woman came up with him.
I nearly had a heart
attack, it was so freaky. She had been
one of the missing, who we had assumed was dead. I didn’t know who she
was. I asked her where she’d been. She
said she didn’t know. She just knew she’d be gone for three years. Whoever had taken her had arranged for her
life on her return; everything she wanted to do was set up for her. She seemed okay with what had happened to
her, even though she didn’t exactly know what
had happened to her. All she knew was
that they hadn’t done anything evil to her.
She seemed fairly sure about that.
She had a strange air of contentment about the fact that she’d lost
three years of her life. Sort of
Stepford-ish, really.
She was going to
stay in the house, but I was scared and I wanted to leave. She told me her name—I can’t quite remember
it. Her last name was something like
Westhaven or Westbrook. Her first name
might have been Sharon . She told me to call her whenever I needed her
(which didn’t seem very likely to happen because she scared me). It seemed like people were staying behind
with her at the house, although I don’t know who. I could see a couple of shadows hanging
around her. She was standing in the
front doorway of the house, almost blocking the entrance, on the other side of
the screen door from me. (Here the house
looked just like the one in M.F.) She
was bigger than me, and in the dream I felt younger, like I was 21 or 22. She seemed to be a few years older. I think she might have reddish hair.
As I was leaving
the house I realized that everyone who had disappeared were members of my
family—not just random people. Suddenly
I became terrified that whoever was taking them would come for me, too, and I
didn’t want that. Even though they set
up her life very nicely for her on her return, I didn’t want to disappear and
not know what happened to me for some long stretch of time. I was completely freaked out.
When I woke up it
was in the middle of the night and I felt very afraid. I thought to myself that maybe I didn’t want
to remember after all. I didn’t feel so
brave anymore.
When I fell asleep again I had another dream. In it is someone whispered to me, “Be quiet,” and I woke up with a start. Once
again I was terrified. But I thought to
myself, no, I will not be quiet! I am going to remember.
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